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I still come back to the site occasionally to see what's up. I see a few other folks do to. I've rooted around my boxes of letters and photos to see if I can find a scrap, a memory, a bead... Nothing. so I come to see if there are any new pix to spawn memories and make me smile. They do the job. Jordan's memorial was a great thing, but very sad and emotional for me. I spent the 3 hour drive home weepy and have since been caught off gaurd by memories & thoughts of J. some times I think, "I wish you were here right now, you'd love to be doing this with me, if I could only take you in and nurse you" other times I think, "you dumbass". Happens most weeks. sh*t I hadn't even seen him in years, and might have gone my whole life without seeing him again, but I loved him. What a f**king guy! I burned a commemorative fire outside during a snowstorm at my New Years party. I fed it oysters and drinks and talked to him. Was so New-Age corney, but i felt like I had to remember him that night, and talk to the friends around me about him and our loss. The feelings were so raw. I still miss you dumbass.