June 9, 2006 at 8:57 pm
When they told me that you were gone, I wanted everybody to be wrong, I hoped for days they'd all been misinformed. I called your phone but there was no one home. and to hell with this whole world and to hell with everything and to hell with god above for allowing this thing to happen to you. Beautiful wonderful you.And now the closest that I'll ever come is the place where I can kneel six feet above your handsome face. The place where I will have to fight the urge to open the ground and hold you tight. to hell with it all how can this be right. and to hell with this whole world and to hell with everything and to hell with god above for allowing this thing to happen to you. Wonderful incredible youThe absence of your gentle eyes on this earth makes me question what any of this is really worth. I miss the sound of your voice and the rhythm of your speech; but most of all I miss the idea you will die a satisfied old man in your sleep. and to hell with this whole world and to hell with everything and to hell with god above for allowing this thing to happen to you. beautiful wonderful youThese kids with their hard heads sticking needles in their soft arms, it's so casual like going for a swim, taking for granted that they'll see the shore again.and to hell with this whole world and to hell with everything and to hell with god above for allowing this thing to happen to you. Beautiful wonderful you. And some folks they may judge the dead, without ever walking near the deadman's shoes. They don''t know how much a man has already lost, they have no idea how much he has left to lose. So much, So much, we all lost so much, this world lost so much when it lost you. and to hell with this cold world for not pausing in it's spin to mourn the loss of amazing him.and to hell with this whole world and to hell with everything and to hell with god above for allowing this thing to happen to you. Beautiful wonderful you. and to hell with me because there is nothing I can do to make what's happenned not be true.-I hope no one finds the words distasteful, writing the song was just something that was helpful to me and I wanted to share it with people who care about Jordan who is in my thoughts and heart every single day. Love you Jordan