August 25, 2006 at 10:37 pm
I feel silly or unworthy and I guess that's why i never sign my name. Yet still every day I look at pictures of you and I miss you so terribly. I just saw Little Miss Sunshine and I know you would have loved it. That was our thing, seeing movies together, and you saw many awful ones on account of me; but I know we both would have enjoyed that one. And I hate and love that for the rest of my life I am going to unavoidabley recall times with you when I see a good movie or learn of a beautiful new band. I don't want to have to miss you anymore; but I don't want to forget you, you mean so much. and yes i am an ass, but I don't understand what life means and that increible you isn't here figuring it out with me makes it all the more meaningless.But I can still see your huge grin and I know you would have me continue and your smile is one of the more personal reasons I do. I love you always.